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Feb. 11th, 2009 06:30 pmSo it turns out that I just really hate "maintenance."
I've always enjoyed establishing systems for things, getting things going, working out methods. But keeping things going? Not so much. I was just thinking of all the temp jobs I've had, and all any jobs for that matter. And the ones I inevitably liked best were the ones where either I was the first person in that position, or I was the first person in that position who was not a completely disorganized idiot. I loved setting things up and establishing protocols, writing things out, making it all extremely clear to anyone who might appear to do the job. But then after that part was done, I'd get bored and start looking elsewhere. And the jobs where I was just filling in for someone, or otherwise not expected or allowed to change anything, even when change was clearly needed? Hated.
So this is something about me. And it's true now. I wonder what it actually means for my life. I enjoy getting the house set up, functional, comfortable, clean. And then after that, I kind of want to move and start again. Over and over. I have no interest in keeping up with it. It all gets so boring to me.
When i was a teenager, I would stay up all night watching Nick at Night. And the Lucy Show was one of my favorites. One episode, they had an efficiency expert in to evaluate the company Lucy worked for. And I was like, YES, THAT IS ME! It immediately became my dream career. And really, when I think back to the jobs I loved, I was basically doing that stuff. Streamlining, figuring out ways to make things work in the simplest possible ways.
And what is my life now but the opposite of that? Anyway, I live with a bunch of people who systematically undo everything I set up, and generally don't value anything I do or even understand it.
So having this realization about myself could be really useful if I had a clue what to do with it.
Also, I've been bored and reading old posts from like 2002, back when I used to have a personality and interesting thoughts and adventures.
I've always enjoyed establishing systems for things, getting things going, working out methods. But keeping things going? Not so much. I was just thinking of all the temp jobs I've had, and all any jobs for that matter. And the ones I inevitably liked best were the ones where either I was the first person in that position, or I was the first person in that position who was not a completely disorganized idiot. I loved setting things up and establishing protocols, writing things out, making it all extremely clear to anyone who might appear to do the job. But then after that part was done, I'd get bored and start looking elsewhere. And the jobs where I was just filling in for someone, or otherwise not expected or allowed to change anything, even when change was clearly needed? Hated.
So this is something about me. And it's true now. I wonder what it actually means for my life. I enjoy getting the house set up, functional, comfortable, clean. And then after that, I kind of want to move and start again. Over and over. I have no interest in keeping up with it. It all gets so boring to me.
When i was a teenager, I would stay up all night watching Nick at Night. And the Lucy Show was one of my favorites. One episode, they had an efficiency expert in to evaluate the company Lucy worked for. And I was like, YES, THAT IS ME! It immediately became my dream career. And really, when I think back to the jobs I loved, I was basically doing that stuff. Streamlining, figuring out ways to make things work in the simplest possible ways.
And what is my life now but the opposite of that? Anyway, I live with a bunch of people who systematically undo everything I set up, and generally don't value anything I do or even understand it.
So having this realization about myself could be really useful if I had a clue what to do with it.
Also, I've been bored and reading old posts from like 2002, back when I used to have a personality and interesting thoughts and adventures.
