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I've just discovered one more thing to love about Jake. Even when I call him crying, tell him I'm on the side of the road and just wrecked our new car, the only thing he cares about is that I'm okay.

This is a far cry from how it was with my dad, who seemed to delight in screaming obscenities at me and telling me it was all my fault even when the other driver was the one who was ticketed and not me. Whatever.

It wasn't really bad, and I don't really even know what happened. Fortunately there was no other car involved, so there was no need to call the police or anything. I was afraid to look at the damage so I went two miles very slowly and got to Jake's work so we could look at it together. Not a scratch, fortunately, though I was expecting the whole back end to be demolished. The back right wheel, though, is in bad shape and the tow truck driver told us it would be several hundred to fix it. Oh yay.

Jake called my work and told them I wasn't coming in (I was on the way there).

I'm really upset because this happened because of stress over my job. I was so upset about going in today, and about a ton of things that I've been not dealing with there, and I knew it was going to have to come to a head this week, and I was really dreading it. Now I don't care so much, seeing how it's affecting me to the point that I can't fucking DRIVE.

What really gets me NOW is that I'm going to have to work so much to pay for the damage to my car. There is irony here that I can't even stand to write out.

So I seem to have the day off after all. I won't have my car for at least a few days because they have to order parts, so I might have tomorrow off too. No idea. I do need the money now though, obviously.

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Have you ever stopped and just looked at your life and realised that even though in your head you are totally clear on what your priorities are, your actual life doesn't seem to reflect that at all?

That's where I am right now. Jake and I had a long talk while we were waiting for the tow truck, and I'm beginning to have a new perspective. Sometimes it's really easy to have things clear and figured out in your head, but that doesn't always translate. I want to make sure that from now on it always does. This will mean that I have to stop more often and just ASSESS. Too often I get swept away by the momentum of whatever I have going on, and I lose touch with reality.

I swear I did not make these entries.

1. jake
the police.
we was riden down the street and the jakes pulled us over.

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1. julie
1. (Noun) One who exhibits extreme hottness.

2. (Verb) To be a fine, fine peice o' ass.
"Daaaaammm check out the smokin' babage, how very julie of her."


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