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Apr. 23rd, 2005 06:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valancystirlingNote to self: FIND SOMEONE TO SEE SCARY MOVIES WITH.
I made the mistake of seeing the Amityville movie. It was playing at the right time, and I didn't care what movie I saw.
I was scared the whole freaking time. I was shaking when I left the theater. If I HAD had someone sitting next to me, his arm would have been clawed to pieces. I had my eyes covered almost the whole time. I don't know why I do this to myself. Over and over and over.
Jake does not enjoy scary movies.
I don't know why I do.
I needed to see a movie just to escape reality for a while. All day I've been bashing myself nonstop over every mistake I've made in my entire life, and all the people I've let down, and all the things I hate about myself. You can imagine how great I feel after THAT. It's like a THIS IS YOUR LIFE, LOSER! and everything I've ever done has been wrong or hurtful or stupid. Maybe one day I'll either stop beating myself up and just improve my behavior, or stop caring altogether.
Anyway, I am home and I have eaten and Jake should be home soon I think.
In other news, my sister called me yesterday and apparently does not hate me after all.
I made the mistake of seeing the Amityville movie. It was playing at the right time, and I didn't care what movie I saw.
I was scared the whole freaking time. I was shaking when I left the theater. If I HAD had someone sitting next to me, his arm would have been clawed to pieces. I had my eyes covered almost the whole time. I don't know why I do this to myself. Over and over and over.
Jake does not enjoy scary movies.
I don't know why I do.
I needed to see a movie just to escape reality for a while. All day I've been bashing myself nonstop over every mistake I've made in my entire life, and all the people I've let down, and all the things I hate about myself. You can imagine how great I feel after THAT. It's like a THIS IS YOUR LIFE, LOSER! and everything I've ever done has been wrong or hurtful or stupid. Maybe one day I'll either stop beating myself up and just improve my behavior, or stop caring altogether.
Anyway, I am home and I have eaten and Jake should be home soon I think.
In other news, my sister called me yesterday and apparently does not hate me after all.
