Fear and...fear.
Sep. 3rd, 2004 04:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valancystirlingI'm feeling a certain terror today. I got an email back from this other temp agency and she wants me to come in on Wednesday because she has two temp-to-hire jobs, both in the $8.50-9.00 an hour range. Okay, scary. Scary for several reasons. First, scary because hello, that's like no money and not even worth getting out of bed for and oh my god even though i'm worth shit i'm actually worth more than that. Second scary because then I'd have to go and put on Going in Public clothes and do WORK. We all know how much I adore petty secretary jobs.
Still, I shouldn't complain. Money is a good thing, and in this town you just can't be too choosy.
Also, more terror. Last night Jake called me and announced that I was driving him to Ithaca. He's totally--no, TOTALLY--loving having me drive him places. So I went to pick him up at work and we took off. I was having a fit. I'm totallyl relaxed and calm driving, until he gets in the car. He doesn't do anything, it's just that I get fidgety and nervous and distracted. So I totally freaked out and when we stopped for gas I asked him to drive instead. I kept having these incredibly vivid flashbacks of all my previous collisions, and I kept picturing a horrible wreck. It was just really upsetting me. I was totally afraid. I'm fine now, and have been driving a lot today, but for some reason I was really on edge last night. I seem to be over it.
Still, I shouldn't complain. Money is a good thing, and in this town you just can't be too choosy.
Also, more terror. Last night Jake called me and announced that I was driving him to Ithaca. He's totally--no, TOTALLY--loving having me drive him places. So I went to pick him up at work and we took off. I was having a fit. I'm totallyl relaxed and calm driving, until he gets in the car. He doesn't do anything, it's just that I get fidgety and nervous and distracted. So I totally freaked out and when we stopped for gas I asked him to drive instead. I kept having these incredibly vivid flashbacks of all my previous collisions, and I kept picturing a horrible wreck. It was just really upsetting me. I was totally afraid. I'm fine now, and have been driving a lot today, but for some reason I was really on edge last night. I seem to be over it.
